Some little updates..

ok so sorrie folks, i have been busy planning lessons for my students in Fajar... i hope they like the lesson. tried to make it fun and interesting. trying to teach them things about music that will be able to help them in future or to understand what ppl are talking about as they interact with ppl who understands music too.
Oh well, anyway, i am not sure if i can bear to leave them when i am supposed to. i love them so much even though sometimes, they do make me feel like i'm gonna kill them.. haha but i guess this is what makes it fun in secondary school. Teaching secondary students makes me think back about my days when i was in secondary school. one word to describe: WACKY!!!
Honestly, i think i'm going to admit it, i am a music person through and through... music has such an effect on me that i can't describe how i feel whenever i listen to any kind of music. spare me heavy metal k? can't even understand a word of screamo they are saying unless i back musk the track which i dun intend to for fear i hear things that i do not want to hear.

Went to watch phantom of the opera yesterday at esplanade with dai feng and met a few others. oh met xing yu and kai li too.. haha. the musical was good. no sorrie, it was a powerhouse musical. i am so glad that i managed to catch it this time round. the music and the orchestra was so good that it send goosebumps and chills down my spine. It is definitely worth watching. the tone of the voice together with the orchestra was perfect was so round. it was woohoo!!!! no words can describe it. i would recommend u watch it live.
I'll share with you some of my thoughts... when i watched it, i was thinking. " Oh my gosh, wat i am doing in a teaching line? i could have pursued a life of performing. " to make music together with orchestra, to compose songs and pieces, to find musicians to play my piece for me, the company of making music together. the arty farty life that i once had and so adored is still there but not as funky in a place called Bugis where we have secret garden, esplanade cafe right at our finger tips.
Thank God i still have my band to jam with. if not, i will really regret not pursuing a performing life.

Brahms!!! you rock my world!!!

ok i admit i am a sucker for minor keys. listening to Brahms's piano concerto no. 1 in Bb major and piano concerto in d minor brings back many fond memories in nafa. I am so tempted to attempt playing the d minor one. One of my favourites.
For those who have not heard it and are curious to know what it sounds like, pls find me. I'm more than willing to share with u...

*sighz* the melodies are so beautiful with rich harmonies, beautiful registras, wonderful orchestration... etc.etc. NAFA!!! I MISS U TOTALLY!!!

a world of music vs. a world of academic stuff... a life of performance with many chances to perform. i doubt that will ever be restored to me. unless i pursue a life of performance after my bond... but yet it holds a certain risk and a world full of unstability. Singapore arts scene isn't actually as happening as it is being rumoured to be. selective hearing or observation i rather call it. oh well... honestly, nafarians, u may be bitch about the amount of workload u have there, or the stress that u're facing. but trust me, once u're out of the system of nafa, or rather the music world in nafa u'll prob miss it. i do miss the company of nafa so much.

anyway, anyone who is interested in playing wif me brahms piano concerto in d minor, pls contact me.

Chinese New Year

These are some pictures i took of my family n i during Cny. hahaha. enjoyed myself quite abit during this festive season. haha. the nice break before teaching secondary students in 4 days time.

yay

my blog is driving me up the wall. for three days, it has hanged for no apparent reason. nth to do with my connection, serve bla bla bla... oh well, anyway, i am glad that CST oral exam is finally over. was glad that God was with me all the way throughout the exam. haha.. had lunch with eugene at jurong today. was good to catch up with him after 3 donkey years. but it was fun all the same. CNY is coming!!! guess i'll be doing the usual stuff.. haha
Nat: " Auntie, gong xi fa cai"
my aunt: " aiyo, guai guai, ni jin nian zai zuo se me ar?'
nat: " zai du shu lor"
aunt: " aiyo, na me jiu le, hai zai du shu ar, wei se me bu yao qu zuo gong?"
haha every year same questions and the same answers. somehow, old aunties dun get tired of asking the same question every year. or is it just that they do not bother to remember... either which, it is becoming a routine.. hahaha. but ok lar, i love them lots still. ok... got to go back and watch my korean show now. tata.

doughnut day :)

i had a fun day today. hee. was so touched when xing xing n kaili opened their rooms to sell their barangs barangs n invited me to sell my doughnuts. i was so happy... but my dot dot was late. hee, fortunately, i had chris with me. i think it was so sweet of him to accompany me to sell the doughnuts too. am glad he had fun too :) yupyup. anyway, the chocolate ones, lemon glazed doughnuts,durian doughnuts and plain ones are now available. hee.. i thank all of those who have supported in buying my doughnuts i appreciate it and may u continue to support us. thank you so much.
valentine's day is coming. hahah no one to spend it with except for my student. i have a date with him. ha ha. *piano lesson*... yup, i think valentine's day should not be just on 14 feb, i think it is ridiculous to just show ur affections on only one day. i think it should be an everyday affair. valentine's day should be everyday. not just on one particularly commercialized day. it does not make sense. i am so glad that every day is valentine's day for me with God n my family n frens :) truly blessed. hee.... a few more days to cNY n then Fajar here i come.. hahaha. God help me when i'm in there. hee.. looking forward to it yet nervous.

new day

interesting day i had today. dun noe why i woke up feeling so grumpy in the first place and den spent or rather tired myself out by baking lots of cookies. i enjoy it though. It just feels so serene... but nothing beats playing the piano and jamming with my bros lar. That's for sure. haha. went to nie concert yesterday. ok lar, i had fun but it brought back nostalgic feelings in me about my life in nafa. that is something i find it hard to get over up till today. i have no idea if i have difficulty letting it go or i do not want to let go. either way, i miss my life in town. *sigh*... am thinking of joining nie band where i can continue to play the piano and hopefully learn the harp but the thing is i have to be bonded to the band for 5 years. not too bad wat since my whole entire life is in the teaching businness. haha.
I have no regrets with my life i spent in nafa. and i certainly am looking forward to teaching to a certain extent. but i noe God is always with me but sometimes do u get the feeling that he is so far away. yeah and that's what i am feeling now. far far away though i noe he's near me. or perhaps, this is the after effects of tough love? i dun noe. but i pray daddy God that u give me the strength to continue all the rest of my days.

couldn't sleep so decided to share with you another wacky tom and jerry

new bloggie!!!

yay yay... i have a new blogskin. all thanks to my beloved dot dot. she took such pains to sit down and reedit the script. i was so touched but it was fun though sitting there and watch her do it for me. I learned smth new today... hahaha. was quite down today and am still troubled over certain things that relates to my future. but i noe that everything will turn out fine coz i am God's child, and no father will ever let his children come to harm or ruins. Every father wants the best for his child and i noe that God will watch and protect me. All i need to be is obedient but whether i have that amount of faith, i will tell u about it 5 years down the road when i look back upon this day. the comfort that i have for now is this song which has been quite ministering to me for the past 3 weeks. it is called till i see you again:

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
that overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
and if I see you face to face
and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You.

this is just the verse. even so, these few lines are warm enough to make me tear. it is so heartwarming to know that anyone could love me so much that he went through so much just to find me. therefore, i am still gng to pray about it. i will not give up without a good fight. heh heh. i won't admit defeat so easily knowing that God has a hand in it. God landed me here n i trust he wil provide smth good for me.

exzercise!!!

i had a rather brain draining week this entire week coz we had online discussions with a brainy teacher of ours who never cease to pump us with questions one after another. not that it is bad but it is good lar actually. It challenges how we view things related to music and to make us think deeply. which is actually not my cup of tea. i'm a practical music or so to speak. anyway, just to show what i have been doing for the past two weeks. i have been busy youtubing for nice shows. here are some of faves...

The Cat concerto which i must say, reminds me of uncle zecky as tom walks in to the piano n when he plays the piano, it reminds me of yikai.. muahaahahah.. watch it...

and i have purple smurfs....

videomania

it has been one fun and exciting week with my lecturers getting funkier by the lesson. hahah... n i needed time to myself. so while i was having sleeping nights, i spent time youtubing. found cool shows like carebears, smurfs. hahaha. here watch it. anyway the tom n jerry cartoon ar, when jerry walks in on stage, reminds me of uncle zecky n when he plays, he has this idiotic face that reminds me of yikai.. hahaha. oops a bit bad lar but it's a compliment to be featured in a cartoon. :)

doctor...

gosh, it is only the second week of sch and i have already taken ill. seen the doctor twice this week already. haha. doc is my best fren. muahahah. Anyway, i want to introduce u guys to this website. http://beatitudescloset.blogspot.com . it is a website of fashion. yeah, give it a try, if any of u like the designs there and want to buy it, u can either contact me or shirley. her number is stated there already. The clothes u see there are imported from korea n hongkong, quite neat and the price is rather reasonable. yup yup. so feel free to go take a look ya? haha
been busy making doughnuts for the past few days. it has been fun. the brownie doughnut has been quite a success. haaha. shall be thinking of a new name for it soon. and the cheese doughnuts are not bad too. mummy loves them. hahaha she says she might be having a doughnut waist soon. muahahah. aiya, anyway my daddy loves her all the same with or without the doughnut waist.
if u guys want more doughnuts, just tell me k? dun feel paisei or think that u are troubling. hahah coz i love making them. the joy is when the dougnuts take their shape. it is so cool. hahhaa. the thrill of making them smooth looking on the top... hahhaa.
i think God has been so good of taking care of my family for the past 20 over years. yeah. i just love him more n more each day. hahhaa. love u daddy God.

A New Year :)

ok a happy belated New Year to all of you. have learnt alot for the past few weeks as i reflect upon last yr. u noe, i realized that in a contrite world, there is room for lots of strive and contempt. however, as believers in this world, we have Jesus to count and to look for. haaha yeah, anyway my new year resolution is to be an influence and not being influenced by others and the environment.

snow or rain?

past 3 days has been raining continuously. i am beginning to wonder is it realli rain or melted snow? u noe due to our geographical location in the world, we have to be near the equator so much so that we can't enjoy beautiful white snow... gosh... the next best thing that we can enjoy during Christmas is rain. yup... and today it is so sunny but unfortunately, i have to be in church otherwise it would have a nice day to spend time with mummy by going shopping.. heh heh...
Can u believe it, Christmas is just 5 days away... SO EXCITING!!! hahaha... gng to church on christmas day to have lunch... den hopefully can go shopping. Dear God, pls dun let it rain. pls let there be sunshine. thank you so much. :)

Yup, anyway, let me share with you one of my favourites from Whose line is it anyway.. it is hilarious lar... i'll upload 'lorraine' to u guys soon... :)

Dreams of today... Memories of yesterday...

sometimes i feel that the dreams and visions i have for today and tomorrow will vanish into thin air and become a memory... i dun see effort, i dun see the perseverance, i dun see the commitment that i used to see in... why? i noe this road has not been easy but we worked so hard to achieve where we are today. and u take it for granted. i cannot believe how complacent u have become. i wish us to go further but sometimes,i feel with the current state of attitude, we are moving towards a dead end... i'll wash my hands of everything...

please remember one thing, there can't be results without conscious effort... if u think that by sitting there, do nothing, everything will remain the same. so be it. but i tell u, ur skills and whatever u have learnt, ur creativity will deterioriate at this rate.

It indeed saddens me but life still goes on. I'll just move on without u. when u are ready n think u want to continue, then u talk to me. if not, pls think thru...

bake-king day!!

tee-hee.. was supposed to go for choir today, but could not make it coz i kind of lost my voice.... it is pretty hoarse... oh well, but i spent time with daddy today in the kitchen, man we cooked up a storm.. there was cheesecake, fruit cake, and cream puffs... hee... quite a fun time, after that we kind of jammed with zk n chris... was interesting though, but i lack my wonderful bro.. gosh, i miss him so much. hee... yup yup...

i kind of miss playing in GCM aka tabernacle of David... with barney, jonathan, and the 3 of us just creating music, trial and error everywhere. hahaha. quite fun ar those days... gosh, i miss all of them... *sigh* time and life goes on... u have better things in store for me. right daddy God?

Christmas is round the corner... with lots of party to attend... heh. have one tmr, have one this sun, so exciting... den the next whole week.. is PARTY TIME!!! but.. i'm a bit lazy to go... if those of u whose party i'm supposed to attend, are reading this, rest assured, u'll see me there but just lazy lar...

Thursday...

ok... today is a thursday.. a fun one in fact.. had a fun time polishing my nails... it is ultra shiny n smooth coz i used mummy's nail buffers, conditioners... watever u use to make the nails beautiful after that i appiled the varnish... ultra shiny lar. so beautiful. was staring at my nails at orchard the entire time.... hah hah...

yeah was at orchard watching eragon at lido... it is actually a very nice show about dragons, dragon riders, magic... u noe the fairytale kind of stuff. and the dragon is so cute when it was young but yet loveable when it is older... but somehow, i get the feeling that it is almost similar to the lord of the rings... yeap... after that, went to coos for some mic course.. interesting info which serves as a reminder and a refresher course... oh well, thank God for the talents that he has placed in the church. just ensure that one does not become complacent after serving God for too long. must always check the heart...

have been feeling down the past few days. but owells, i always have my parents with me and dot, angel and ern who always stand by and correct me... hehe.. u noe sometimes, though i noe that God loves me so... but yet i always have this lonely feeling sometimes, that he is not there... he is so far away from me but yet i noe he is just a phone call away... i dunno how to explain to u these feelings... it is tough for me to describe... have been having sleepless nites for the past few days. must be coz i dun have enuff work to do. so i am running on unused energy... it is like wake up, i have stored energy and when i dun use up the entire tank of energy, i can't sleep at nite. yupz.

another thing... i can't feel the christmas spirit anymore... when i was young, i love christmas.. one can feel the mood n spirit of christmas. but rite now, it is so comercialized.. it sucks... where is the spirit? and christmas is just 2 weeks away... haiz... maybe it is just me... can someone tell me pls? if it is not just me, God can pls grant me this request, pls instill the spirit of christmas again once more :)... i need it.... heez...

shoppaholic...

went shopping with mummy yest... went to chill out at raffles city, marina square coz mummy wanted to see the cute purple balls hanging from the ceiling and suntec city... yeah invited belinda along... we had a fun time yest and mummy n i went to view swimsuits.. i tell u, i have never in my life fell in love with swimsuits until now... gosh, i saw a pretty lime green with brown patternspaghetti strap shirt swimwear with straps which can turn it into a cross-back or a halter.. pretty cool and the bottom would be shorts... yeah man, i love the shop seafolly... if u peeps are interested, u can go to their website... www.seafolly.com amazing swimwear for girls exclusively... unfortunately, i did not get it coz there isn't my size.. have to wait for 2 more weeks for new arrivals. so must see the latest design.. heh heh...

oh yeah, i have always wondered why do most secondary school kids want to dress up as if they are in their 20s? gosh, honestly, in my opinion, they look horrendous... they think they're cool but they are far from it.... look ur age pls... it is so sala, u look at the face, u go wow, this girl is young, and u look at the dressing n u go: man she looks old... *gross*... ok anyway, new age mentality is not fathomable... hah hah...

had a nice day spending time with mummy n preparing the party stuff on sat... den chilled to some lounge n jazz music on daddy's new hi-fi system... was solid man i tell u... heh enjoyed it thoroughly... mum n dad, if u are reading this, i wana tell u tat i love u to bits... u're the best. thank you for giving such a wonderful life n home.... God loves u n i do too... :)

oh Lorraine!!!

hahaha... man, spent my entire day jammin with zg n zk yesterday and this morning watching lorraine... something which i heard shan yu and zk tell me. so decided to go see what is so nice about lorraine... she is this woman who does idiotic stuff ahahaha. can be quite irritating lar... yups... yupz. share with you some pictures of fun times we had during the camp... Thanks Kenny!!! i copped the pics from ur bloggie. heh heh...

Joline and I

Zhong kai's happy face... i think he is being delilah in the game
Zhong Guo's shorts sama sama with Kenny.... yikes

Justin n i slacking on comfy round cushions... we wanted to take it home. rite juz?
enjoying a slice of pizza with myself, aurylia, oli n pastor jenn :)
trying to take the round cushion away from justin...

n wat is marcus aka 'chillex' boy gleeing about?
awww... one big happy family serving God in music :)

'cHiLL-LeX' ...

ok peeps, in case if you are wondering where i have been for the past 3 days, i was in a music advance camp organized by my church... it is pretty cool... at least for me, having just joined the music min, i felt that thru this, i was able to relate to more people but i guess it does not stop here, this is just an ice-breaker for me.
I had fun man in camp. honestly, i was home-sick on the first day. weird ok, i never felt home sick before... owells, learnt a lot of new words from Marcus: chill- lex, n his hokkien, english n chinese version: wa jia Myojo er yi... Translation: i eat myojo only... den josh had this really cool matchstick trick that everyone was figuring out... hahha... yeah rite now, am feeling tired coz we slept realli early in camp like 2am? yea pretty early...

we had worship sessions too apart from laughters... it is realli cool.. I guess these sessions serve as a process... I learnt a lot spiritually n it is also like a reminder... ok i shall be gracious and be miss nice to share with you some...

ok basically, being in a worship ministry is happening and cool but that is not the main purpose. wat God wants to see is our heart. it does not matter if we have talent or not but it is the heart that weighs... and being in a ministry, any ministry requires us to be true and open to God as well as ourselves and the ppl around us.. God does not want us to put on a mask when we come to church only to have that mask taken off from mons- fri... God loves the person behind the mask not the one with the mask. He loves us for who we are. It is ok if you think that u are not that great n not worthy coz u have a lot of problems or issues... Hey, it is fine, no one is perfect. If you have a prob, God is there for u to help u n comfort you... he does not condemn, he wants to help u, to be ur fren, to be there for u when u need help... If u are reading this, n u are in need of help, why not give it a try to ask God for help? He will respond coz he loves u. :)

narcissist

been enjoying myself during hols. it is definitely a much deserved break from all the essays that i have been doing. heh heh... been going out with fren, spending time with loved ones, taking a lot of pictures of myself... haha... let me show u some...

yup tat's all the pictures i have taken so far.. haha... oh ya, and i can't believe that the GST is going to be 7% soon. man tat's fast.... a few more mnths and i am going to pay more than usual... gosh. pathetic. oh well, God can i have more money please? hee.... love you all... :) *hugs and kisses*