am i really that strong?

Am i really that strong?

had extra drama lessons today. unfortunately or fortunately it lasted only for 1.5 hours. I was already very zonked. so zonked until when the bus reached the interchange of boon lay, i still did not know. when i woke up, i realized that everyone had alighted the bus. how embarassing!! oh well. i guess, everyone has embarassing moments. hee

had a nice little chat with one of my drama members, Hema. she is a very sweet girl and we shared about relationship stuffs. glad that i got to know her better. she was asking me how i cope with the bf being away for 3 months, which is quite long to her. den she said, wah nat, you are very strong ar to be able to tahan. if me, 2 weeks i already cannot.

What she said struck me, i am not tat strong. honestly, if i was strong, i would not have cried when he went overseas, i would have been able to sleep and bla bla. but i believe that the reason i am strong enough to be able to face each new day with a smile on my face and to trust in Him that each day will go by very fast is because God helped me thru it. Come to think of it, it is exactly 1 month that Chris has been in US. hahah yeah. Without God, i most probably be some moppy girl with her eyes all swollen from crying every nite. hee. so yeah. thank you Jesus :)

Seriously, as i was showering i thought of smth. ok here goes... have been attending church ever since i was a young little girl (not that i'm old now lar, but ppl do grow taller and u noe more mature *ahem ahem*) yeah. so as i think back, i realized that the teaching of christian doctrine has been mundane as ever.

In Nie, it would be labelled as so TEACHER CENTRED... but i guess, in the context of church it would be.. SO PASTOR CENTRED... haha. i was thinking, what if... there are some ways to incorporate congregation centred learning... now that would be wonderful rite? instead of worrying that the congregation would just sit in the pews and start to stone or snore, they would be engaged. but as usual... ppl or leaders in church are afraid to venture into something new. it is always human err to stay in the safe zone and restrict God's teaching to be something mundane... pls lor, if you look at the bible closely, i would say the God is a kinesthetic learner. so are his disciples. they were always doing hands-on things to learn concepts about life, God, people around them. of coz, when praying it is like duh lar. that one cannot say. prayer is how u pray to God. to each its own. but the teaching of doctrine, i feel there must be a change.

oh well... my belief is that nothing ventured nothing gained. if you have any comments, just tag it.