Monday, July 16, 2007
yup, today i was so excited for my baobei shiqi.. u noe why. today was her piano exam, though she did not do so well for her scales, but i think she practiced hard for her pieces which i hope will pull her up... so hardworking, should be able to pass lar... no worries, i am always behind u supporting you.. jia you wor. no matter what happens. man i love her to bits... FAJARIANS!!! SOB SOBS!!! I MISS YOU!!!...
time seems to pass so fast when i'm with them but time seems to pass so slow when i'm far away from them. can someone pls tell me the logic behind this laggy time... i miss my precious...
chris was sweet to come over to accompany this lifeless face of mine today... ended up playing shift tic tac toe with him in which i thrashed him dunno 16 - 3? yeah can't remember the score but knew that i thrashed him but den came revenge.. i got thrashed by mummy when played with her rummikub at CDANS!! like omg!!!i never lost to her in that game so many times in a row... must be quite distracted from things plus not feeling well...
oh well mummy, if u are reading this, just know that i let u win... hahaha... anyway, i think my precious shiqi is so sweet to have tagged my taggy... thank u bao bei.. i love u lots too!!! lots lots lots...
do i realli have to go back to sch to teach???!?! i want to rest some more. i need rest!!! argh... 3 more weeks to go yelk... i want my mummy!!!
Friday, July 13, 2007
sometimes i wonder what is a school system for u noe. the current sch which i am at has a lousy system in a way. u see ar, teachers have to book in order to use special rooms such as com lab, ava room bla bla... that i understand. but what i dun understand is that certain lessons such as mother tongue lessons are always being used in the AVA room which i also need to use and the best part is that they dun book. and so i have to give up that room just to accomodate to that teacher. like what the hell... i booked lar, the excuse being that the mother tongue teacher is too lazy to mass book the room. so is that my problem? like helo lar, i booked the bloody room... is it becoz i am the music teacher and so i am easy to bully? think again... the most i dun teach music lessons. if u want to play this game, i also can too...
from the first day that i am in this S***** sch, i have been denied rights to a computer, now i am being denied rights to the AVA room?!?!?! what is the world coming to?
Cliche answer would be: an end...
so what if u are a teacher in there for long, so now u want to play rank? hah... play all u want, coz u are so insecure that u have to pull rank... no sense of integrity n no honouring of word. the behaviour is so ironic as compared to the mottos of the sch...
ok to be fair, i admit that there are teachers who realli care n dun bother about the politics and power of the sch... their passion is totally for the students. i think that should be the way... oh well, i suppose there must be a balance of people in this world. the clever, the stupid, the happy, the depressed, the rich n the poor... if not, the world would just tip over on one side. so from satellite, u would see a lopsided earth....
thank God i am only here for another 3 weeks more... just see pork knuckle for a little while longer and then ha i can leave this barbecue pit... man, i'm hungry... gng to starve now bye
Thursday, July 12, 2007
it is not that i want to look down on guys but have any of them proven themselves to be different from others? maybe some yeah but it lasted only a while and the insecure syndrome is back... no different from other guys...
for guys are there who read my blog. pls get a life k? when u come into contact with someone that u like or ur gf's family, pls do not try so hard to get to know them. let nature take its course, the more u insist on getting to know them, the faster ur other half will walk away. trust me, i'm living it. just treat as normally, what the hell is the eager rush to prove ur point of being an item? just normal like frens, coz the more u are eager, the more fake u are, the more u're wearing a mask and it is hard to tell the real u... just be urself n not try to impress ur girl's family or friends. it can be a rather big turn-off and soon u will start wondering why ur girl is drifting. coz she most probably would feel pressurized!! duh!!!
to someone: i noe u r tying ur best.. but chill ok? let's start from scratch all over again. all i ask is tat u be urself n nt try to impress my family. my family members have eyes, they can tell. ur actions of ur own self n wat u believe in... chill.. this time let me tell u of our status. we are nth but just close friends first.... back to scratch is wat n where we are at now.
indeed there are happy times, that i remembe. it's not that i have forgotten about it. i did not. i cherish it. but it is becoz of those happy times that most probably have led one or another to thinking that we can move this relationship up to the next level. if it is so, which i reflect n found it to be true, then i am gng to delevel it whether u like it or not.
u n i have a convenant, we have broken it, i'm gng to repent n restore it... that's the most i can do. i will nt let anything jeopardize my covenant. n i noe u won't too. friendship is what we will remain till the day that this covenant ends, then we can talk about where to go from there. right now, i dun see the need to. this is the boundary that i have set for u n i. this would be a lesson learnt. other things, i will talk it out with u in detail.
remember, the most important thing is just to be urself. certain things must be changed, certain things u just have to be urself. it is still a moulding process. it's gng to be a long time before anything is confirmed.
back to my life... i just lost two markers n i think the office is gng to kill me. but aiya the hahala baby inside there is menopausing lar, whole day scold ppl one. like i said, just a teeny person who is situated right at the bottom of the food chain wants to throw the weight around. that fry should be thanking the heavens that i'm there for only 6 weeks if not, i will definitely give her hell... the whole system is one cock-up system with tons of metaphores and ironies that do not make sense at all.
oh well, life is like tat whether u like it or not. it is how u handle it... can't wait for the day to end to go home to my nice nice home n family. can't wait to eat the claypot rice mummy is cooking. yay, bitching time with mummy. can't wait. anyway, if it is not nice, daddy will eat the entire pot of claypot rice n i shall cook myself a nice nice bowl of maggie mee.
gng for class now..
Sunday, July 08, 2007
can u believe it!! it is sun going on monday...3 weeks have passed when i am in siling :) and i have another 3 more weeks to go excluding this week... man, i can't wait for the time to pass and i can continue studying.
heh but the bad thing is that my medical benefits have been revoked and my salaries have been cut off and am not given any allowance which leaves me to work part time. come to think of it, it can be quite exciting while one is working with my good pals n frens. haha
and mr. yang is back but it can be quite awkward with him left for U.S for a month. hahah can u imagine the times when he will be gone for 4 mnths... haha poor chris. it takes time to get used to him being by my side again. hahaa. ok 0oh well, left a few more hours to monday and it is back to teaching world again. hahaha
and this wed is convo week which means another day off. that means i left 4 days to teach. hahaha... ok lar counting down the weeks, soon the denominator would be converted to days. hahaha.
ok lar, off to talk to someone le tata...
Friday, July 06, 2007
hurray... today is fri n tmr is sat.. heh... had a wonderful time in sch today, scolded one of the sec one classes coz they were over noisy like screaming... eww. but they are cute lar. hahah. gosh u noe ar, prior to wat people say about Siling, it is not so bad a sch. i guess sch kids are like tat nowadays everywhere. neighbourhood schs are like tat unless u go to a very good sch such as perhaps BP govt high or acjc? yeah.
tmr i have speech day. did up the slides and national day songs for tmr. i think it is pretty. spent a lot of time in it, and most importantly i had fun doing it. keke..
i am so glad that u are alright. u noe, the past 2 weeks without u, life was miserable. i could not msn, i could not blog, could not watch n listen to my favourite music. it was terrible. It was like a part of me has been shut off or rather taken away from me. so sad.. i miss u so so so much. i am glad that u're all right now. i am happy to have u sit in the nice reserved right hand corner of my pretty table. that is ur space, and nothing will ever replace it.
Interesting isn't it to know that electronics such as handphones, mp3 players, PSP, laptops have taken so much space in our lives. It is like we're handicapped without them. life is so miserable or rather time passes so slowly without them in our lives. It becomes a part of us till we do not want to let go of it. My colleague, Peter asked me saying that if he took my hp away for an hour, would i survive. i most probably won't. it has become like my security blanket u noe. it's like when i am nervous, scared, i take it out n start msging ppl. even when i'm bored, i take it out. sad also take out. happy chuck it one side. hahahah. yeah
oh anyway tmr is the big day. the YES 3 event is on tmr. hurray!! and mr. yang is coming back to spore at 1am in the morning. Welcome home uncle!!! hahaha. gosh, ok, i can' t realli say that time passes fast now that he is back n neither can i say that time passes slowly either. u noe when one is busy, time seems to pass faster whether u like it or not. when u have nth to do, or missing someone, 5 minutes will always seem like an hour.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
3 more days to 2 wonderful events. i have said it a lot of times, so yah... watever. am currently siting in a staff room which claims to be a wonderful and loving family staff... but what is hidden is the politics and backstabbing world. hah welcome to the real world as the saying goes.
Colleagues, what is the meaning of colleagues? is it where people tell each other off in front of the students? and they do not respect each other? u talk about respect, dun talk about respect until u can model it out n be a good example. even the clerk can scold the teachers off... wat the....
honestly, this is the stingest sch i have ever worked for... tat's why ppl working in fajar, u had better appreciate the working conditions and be glad that u have such a nice principal. the students aren't that bad.. they are angels to me... at least, i think they are angels. love them to bits.
Students here are ok lar... but the staff are the ones that need management man. i tell u, from the top of the food chaing to the lowest, the entire management system is KOYAK!!! CRAP LAR.
i have never liked old people but now i distaste it even further. when u noe u are old n senile, pls get a life n give ur post to new blood... if u can't remember simple things like what ur staff have told u. what kind of person are u? and if u have the guts to be unhappy with me, have the guts to come n tell me urself... why bitch and tell the entire world? i tot bitching is a happening thing among youngsters. i didn't noe oldies like u enjoy our sport or are u trying ur best to fit in? face it!! u will never fit in.
i dun care who u are, i dun care what is ur position in sch... You are an educated person or at least i think u are an educated person since u are managed to be given a post with authority. so i dun think ur EQ is that low. u made a mistake, shut up, admit it and buzz off. i did my part in applying for leave, informing the respective personnels. u forgot, tat's ur problem...
and clerk, ur status is... hah let's nt go there. but yeah, who are u to raise ur voice at me? i made a mistake, i said sorrie to u didn't i? so what is the big harry problem? courtesy campaign n respect my foot... if simple things u can't explain properly to me n u lose ur temper, tat says a lot about u...
n to HOD, thank u for taking the initiative of confronting me and clearing the misunderstanding. i appreciate it lots. thank u for trying to get the facts rite and making sure that i noe the procedures of the sch...
Monday, July 02, 2007
ok today is mon... duh.. that means i left 5 more days to mr. yang's return on sat.. wooho!! eh actually no, he'll be on the plane on fri that means i dun get to talk him then.. oh well, yakless for one day, have him for an entire mnth. quite a good deal... ok DEAL!
yay, i'm so glad that today is youth day. gives me a chance to rest my voice and tmr, i am taking leave again. coz i have to go collect my stuff at nie, but i have to go to siling to change my leave and teach for 1 period.
heh heh, means i will be teaching for 3 days again this week... cool... great. so how?!!?! i still miss my fajar students... u guys rox lar... how i wish i can go back there to teach u guys.
ok ppl... august is coming, sept will be here soon... can any kind soul who noes how to design a nice b'day invitation pls teach me how n design the thing with me.. oh n if any of u are thinking of getting presents... i have one rather nice prizzie for myself... i want a samsung HD tv plasma for my 21 bdae... woo shiok ar. *hint hint* bros... u can decide among the 2 of u who wants to love me more n pamper me. heh heh... will it be u zk or zg?
hee... ok lar ok lar, if not u guys can get me a peugeot car ok? eh anyway, see ar if u buy me the car, den when i pass my license on 15 nov, i can drive u arnd in style... cool ar. and pls make sure it is red in colour. k lar dun say i bully u, i buy for both of u the most stylish sunglasses arnd then u can wear it when u come out of the car. wah glam ar... just imagine...
c'mon c'mon.... love me pls... somebody!!! it is up to the both of u to make my day... i promise u i won't bang or hit the dustbin nor the tree. my driving skill is quite power ok. pls, ok ok.. another one.. if not, u just sponsor me a year's supply of clothes of my choice... how?
eh both of u dun ignore me lei... i noe u both sure sabo me on that day.. so pls, give me some consolation prize for being a sport... eh not fair lei, i so poor thing stand there let u all bully. so i need prizes!!!
can someone pls knock some sense into my bros.. hahah.... ok. shall go off now... been staring at the com the entire day. time to get a life now.. calculate all my leave dates n mcs to start using. count down to studying: 4 more weeks
Sunday, July 01, 2007
had a crappy day in the morning. lost my voice, had a sore throat and woke up feeling quite terrible with cough. yuck... thanks to si ling 1T1 students... man, i miss my fajar students so cute and angelic. :)
anyway, had a wonderful time jamming with zg, guanwen and his fren willie. Zk is away in Korea busy finding korean gf and kimchi... haha no lar, he is there for some mission trip. life is farni without my bro zk. just weird u noe. no one to bully. hahaha so zg n i decided to entertain ourselves throughout the nite. heh.
gosh 5 more weeks to go at Siling, YES!... somehow it feels different. i can't seem to connect with these kids or maybe it is a biased opinion of me. it feels as if i have left my heart in fajar... oh well but i do admit that there are some nice cute students in siling. just not all. and the travelling time does not make it any easier for me. tire easily... darn... n sch does not end till 3pm.. ha
anyway, had a wonderful dinner today, had tomato crabs, veg, chicken rendang and rice. perfect meal for youth day... haha.
PS.. i dun dare to go see the doc, for fear he will just send to the hospital straight. that is what he promised me the last time i went to see him, so i had better stay at home and ask God to heal me. i dun want to go to the hospital. so scary there. yuck but then again, nice break from teaching at siling hahaha... if only, i was at fajar, life would be so much less complicated and happier. haha...
k got to rest le. lazy to change colour again. so bear with me n sori for the inconvenince and lack of enthusiastic colours. but i still love all of u. gng to rest now. tata *muackz*