snow or rain?

past 3 days has been raining continuously. i am beginning to wonder is it realli rain or melted snow? u noe due to our geographical location in the world, we have to be near the equator so much so that we can't enjoy beautiful white snow... gosh... the next best thing that we can enjoy during Christmas is rain. yup... and today it is so sunny but unfortunately, i have to be in church otherwise it would have a nice day to spend time with mummy by going shopping.. heh heh...
Can u believe it, Christmas is just 5 days away... SO EXCITING!!! hahaha... gng to church on christmas day to have lunch... den hopefully can go shopping. Dear God, pls dun let it rain. pls let there be sunshine. thank you so much. :)

Yup, anyway, let me share with you one of my favourites from Whose line is it anyway.. it is hilarious lar... i'll upload 'lorraine' to u guys soon... :)

Dreams of today... Memories of yesterday...

sometimes i feel that the dreams and visions i have for today and tomorrow will vanish into thin air and become a memory... i dun see effort, i dun see the perseverance, i dun see the commitment that i used to see in... why? i noe this road has not been easy but we worked so hard to achieve where we are today. and u take it for granted. i cannot believe how complacent u have become. i wish us to go further but sometimes,i feel with the current state of attitude, we are moving towards a dead end... i'll wash my hands of everything...

please remember one thing, there can't be results without conscious effort... if u think that by sitting there, do nothing, everything will remain the same. so be it. but i tell u, ur skills and whatever u have learnt, ur creativity will deterioriate at this rate.

It indeed saddens me but life still goes on. I'll just move on without u. when u are ready n think u want to continue, then u talk to me. if not, pls think thru...

bake-king day!!

tee-hee.. was supposed to go for choir today, but could not make it coz i kind of lost my voice.... it is pretty hoarse... oh well, but i spent time with daddy today in the kitchen, man we cooked up a storm.. there was cheesecake, fruit cake, and cream puffs... hee... quite a fun time, after that we kind of jammed with zk n chris... was interesting though, but i lack my wonderful bro.. gosh, i miss him so much. hee... yup yup...

i kind of miss playing in GCM aka tabernacle of David... with barney, jonathan, and the 3 of us just creating music, trial and error everywhere. hahaha. quite fun ar those days... gosh, i miss all of them... *sigh* time and life goes on... u have better things in store for me. right daddy God?

Christmas is round the corner... with lots of party to attend... heh. have one tmr, have one this sun, so exciting... den the next whole week.. is PARTY TIME!!! but.. i'm a bit lazy to go... if those of u whose party i'm supposed to attend, are reading this, rest assured, u'll see me there but just lazy lar...

Thursday...

ok... today is a thursday.. a fun one in fact.. had a fun time polishing my nails... it is ultra shiny n smooth coz i used mummy's nail buffers, conditioners... watever u use to make the nails beautiful after that i appiled the varnish... ultra shiny lar. so beautiful. was staring at my nails at orchard the entire time.... hah hah...

yeah was at orchard watching eragon at lido... it is actually a very nice show about dragons, dragon riders, magic... u noe the fairytale kind of stuff. and the dragon is so cute when it was young but yet loveable when it is older... but somehow, i get the feeling that it is almost similar to the lord of the rings... yeap... after that, went to coos for some mic course.. interesting info which serves as a reminder and a refresher course... oh well, thank God for the talents that he has placed in the church. just ensure that one does not become complacent after serving God for too long. must always check the heart...

have been feeling down the past few days. but owells, i always have my parents with me and dot, angel and ern who always stand by and correct me... hehe.. u noe sometimes, though i noe that God loves me so... but yet i always have this lonely feeling sometimes, that he is not there... he is so far away from me but yet i noe he is just a phone call away... i dunno how to explain to u these feelings... it is tough for me to describe... have been having sleepless nites for the past few days. must be coz i dun have enuff work to do. so i am running on unused energy... it is like wake up, i have stored energy and when i dun use up the entire tank of energy, i can't sleep at nite. yupz.

another thing... i can't feel the christmas spirit anymore... when i was young, i love christmas.. one can feel the mood n spirit of christmas. but rite now, it is so comercialized.. it sucks... where is the spirit? and christmas is just 2 weeks away... haiz... maybe it is just me... can someone tell me pls? if it is not just me, God can pls grant me this request, pls instill the spirit of christmas again once more :)... i need it.... heez...

shoppaholic...

went shopping with mummy yest... went to chill out at raffles city, marina square coz mummy wanted to see the cute purple balls hanging from the ceiling and suntec city... yeah invited belinda along... we had a fun time yest and mummy n i went to view swimsuits.. i tell u, i have never in my life fell in love with swimsuits until now... gosh, i saw a pretty lime green with brown patternspaghetti strap shirt swimwear with straps which can turn it into a cross-back or a halter.. pretty cool and the bottom would be shorts... yeah man, i love the shop seafolly... if u peeps are interested, u can go to their website... www.seafolly.com amazing swimwear for girls exclusively... unfortunately, i did not get it coz there isn't my size.. have to wait for 2 more weeks for new arrivals. so must see the latest design.. heh heh...

oh yeah, i have always wondered why do most secondary school kids want to dress up as if they are in their 20s? gosh, honestly, in my opinion, they look horrendous... they think they're cool but they are far from it.... look ur age pls... it is so sala, u look at the face, u go wow, this girl is young, and u look at the dressing n u go: man she looks old... *gross*... ok anyway, new age mentality is not fathomable... hah hah...

had a nice day spending time with mummy n preparing the party stuff on sat... den chilled to some lounge n jazz music on daddy's new hi-fi system... was solid man i tell u... heh enjoyed it thoroughly... mum n dad, if u are reading this, i wana tell u tat i love u to bits... u're the best. thank you for giving such a wonderful life n home.... God loves u n i do too... :)

oh Lorraine!!!

hahaha... man, spent my entire day jammin with zg n zk yesterday and this morning watching lorraine... something which i heard shan yu and zk tell me. so decided to go see what is so nice about lorraine... she is this woman who does idiotic stuff ahahaha. can be quite irritating lar... yups... yupz. share with you some pictures of fun times we had during the camp... Thanks Kenny!!! i copped the pics from ur bloggie. heh heh...

Joline and I

Zhong kai's happy face... i think he is being delilah in the game
Zhong Guo's shorts sama sama with Kenny.... yikes

Justin n i slacking on comfy round cushions... we wanted to take it home. rite juz?
enjoying a slice of pizza with myself, aurylia, oli n pastor jenn :)
trying to take the round cushion away from justin...

n wat is marcus aka 'chillex' boy gleeing about?
awww... one big happy family serving God in music :)

'cHiLL-LeX' ...

ok peeps, in case if you are wondering where i have been for the past 3 days, i was in a music advance camp organized by my church... it is pretty cool... at least for me, having just joined the music min, i felt that thru this, i was able to relate to more people but i guess it does not stop here, this is just an ice-breaker for me.
I had fun man in camp. honestly, i was home-sick on the first day. weird ok, i never felt home sick before... owells, learnt a lot of new words from Marcus: chill- lex, n his hokkien, english n chinese version: wa jia Myojo er yi... Translation: i eat myojo only... den josh had this really cool matchstick trick that everyone was figuring out... hahha... yeah rite now, am feeling tired coz we slept realli early in camp like 2am? yea pretty early...

we had worship sessions too apart from laughters... it is realli cool.. I guess these sessions serve as a process... I learnt a lot spiritually n it is also like a reminder... ok i shall be gracious and be miss nice to share with you some...

ok basically, being in a worship ministry is happening and cool but that is not the main purpose. wat God wants to see is our heart. it does not matter if we have talent or not but it is the heart that weighs... and being in a ministry, any ministry requires us to be true and open to God as well as ourselves and the ppl around us.. God does not want us to put on a mask when we come to church only to have that mask taken off from mons- fri... God loves the person behind the mask not the one with the mask. He loves us for who we are. It is ok if you think that u are not that great n not worthy coz u have a lot of problems or issues... Hey, it is fine, no one is perfect. If you have a prob, God is there for u to help u n comfort you... he does not condemn, he wants to help u, to be ur fren, to be there for u when u need help... If u are reading this, n u are in need of help, why not give it a try to ask God for help? He will respond coz he loves u. :)

narcissist

been enjoying myself during hols. it is definitely a much deserved break from all the essays that i have been doing. heh heh... been going out with fren, spending time with loved ones, taking a lot of pictures of myself... haha... let me show u some...

yup tat's all the pictures i have taken so far.. haha... oh ya, and i can't believe that the GST is going to be 7% soon. man tat's fast.... a few more mnths and i am going to pay more than usual... gosh. pathetic. oh well, God can i have more money please? hee.... love you all... :) *hugs and kisses*

puff puff puff

guess wat have i been doing for the past few days? haha yup busy baking cream puffs and taking pictures of myself. yeah, call me a narcissist. haha. ok so here comes the pics of my daddy's cream puffs. it is pretty. i couldn't bear to eat them. haiz...


those are daddy's yummy cream puffs.. hee freshly baked from the oven... yum. Aren't the shapes pretty... heh heh...