it is not that i want to look down on guys but have any of them proven themselves to be different from others? maybe some yeah but it lasted only a while and the insecure syndrome is back... no different from other guys...
for guys are there who read my blog. pls get a life k? when u come into contact with someone that u like or ur gf's family, pls do not try so hard to get to know them. let nature take its course, the more u insist on getting to know them, the faster ur other half will walk away. trust me, i'm living it. just treat as normally, what the hell is the eager rush to prove ur point of being an item? just normal like frens, coz the more u are eager, the more fake u are, the more u're wearing a mask and it is hard to tell the real u... just be urself n not try to impress ur girl's family or friends. it can be a rather big turn-off and soon u will start wondering why ur girl is drifting. coz she most probably would feel pressurized!! duh!!!
to someone: i noe u r tying ur best.. but chill ok? let's start from scratch all over again. all i ask is tat u be urself n nt try to impress my family. my family members have eyes, they can tell. ur actions of ur own self n wat u believe in... chill.. this time let me tell u of our status. we are nth but just close friends first.... back to scratch is wat n where we are at now.
indeed there are happy times, that i remembe. it's not that i have forgotten about it. i did not. i cherish it. but it is becoz of those happy times that most probably have led one or another to thinking that we can move this relationship up to the next level. if it is so, which i reflect n found it to be true, then i am gng to delevel it whether u like it or not.
u n i have a convenant, we have broken it, i'm gng to repent n restore it... that's the most i can do. i will nt let anything jeopardize my covenant. n i noe u won't too. friendship is what we will remain till the day that this covenant ends, then we can talk about where to go from there. right now, i dun see the need to. this is the boundary that i have set for u n i. this would be a lesson learnt. other things, i will talk it out with u in detail.
remember, the most important thing is just to be urself. certain things must be changed, certain things u just have to be urself. it is still a moulding process. it's gng to be a long time before anything is confirmed.
back to my life... i just lost two markers n i think the office is gng to kill me. but aiya the hahala baby inside there is menopausing lar, whole day scold ppl one. like i said, just a teeny person who is situated right at the bottom of the food chain wants to throw the weight around. that fry should be thanking the heavens that i'm there for only 6 weeks if not, i will definitely give her hell... the whole system is one cock-up system with tons of metaphores and ironies that do not make sense at all.
oh well, life is like tat whether u like it or not. it is how u handle it... can't wait for the day to end to go home to my nice nice home n family. can't wait to eat the claypot rice mummy is cooking. yay, bitching time with mummy. can't wait. anyway, if it is not nice, daddy will eat the entire pot of claypot rice n i shall cook myself a nice nice bowl of maggie mee.
gng for class now..
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