Is God in control?

Is God in control or wat?

fine.. a little updates before i say what is truly bugging in my heart deep down within... firstly, today went by super slow.. i have no idea why lar.. maybe it is because, my dear mr. yang has left for U.S for a supernatural conference... very exciting... haha. missing him is an understatement of the mnth lar.. but on the bright side, i guess 3 weeks will go past very fast if i find things to occupy myself with.

luckily for me, my day started at 6pm, right after dinner where i had a jamming session with my bros first.. we played battle cry... man, it brings fond memories when we were in the other church... hahaa at abt 7pm, when we were quite mad and high my godsis, deniece came to join us in the jamming session... coz we're gng to perform a few sentimental songs at esplanade on sun... ok lar... it was quite gao wei initially coz suddenly, she can't flow with us n vice versa plus she brought her own fren in... hahaha. oh well, it was fun... after she left, zk, zg, n i had a fun time arranging songs, changing rhythms from 4/4 rock to funk to bossa nova and back to rock... had a fun time worshipping God by ourselves again. man, this is something that i miss.. to be able to reach, taste n God's presence. It has been a long time since i ever experienced a super high worship... which brings me to what is egging me in my heart the past few months...

sometimes ar, i seriously wonder why God put me back in Coos... tho i noe the reason but must He really do that? i enjoy worshipping together with bros, jonathan and barnabus... man that was the bomb man of worships... super high...i mean sometimes, i feel that we put God in a box... We play God instead. if u restrict God to what u noe, then aren't u God? when worshipping... one does not need to follow a rigid structure... Let God flow.. it is something that i have not been able to experience here in Coos...
and what is with the complicated song arrangements? half cut, here, full cut there? it just complicates things... no band dynamics? why? ask me n i will tell u how and where the problem lies... i can go on n on... there will be no end... i will say my piece when the time is ripe... for now, i shall keep my mouth shut.

What is worship and music? let me tell u...
Worship and music comes from the heart... True worship to God means u let Him take control... When the music or worship is in chaos, that is where God is happy.. coz He is in control. He can do what He wants... not some fancy band arrangement with wonderful techniques to make ppl feel good...
and music for worship? just keep it simple and lively with a balanced range of lows, mids n highs... with nice layering of instruments and creative but simple arrangements and cuts...
Who cares whether the song arrangment is good when the congregration can't follow? who cares if u got experience in playing with outside gigues or concerts... is the ability to play n worship God based on all these? if it is, think again.. u have got ur doctrine n concept wrong. wat rubbish...

u want a breakthru? sure easy... let God lead... apart from that... ATTITUDE is the key to everything... wat emo shit... emo my foot. trying to sound like a sonic edge band is crap pls. forgive me but we have to define our own style. u have a congregation, so adapt to their needs.. stop imitating other bands, get a life.

Where we are serving is the sacred, holiest house of God.. it is a ministry. dun take it for granted or assume it is a place to gain recognition. being in a ministry takes sacrifice n hard work n commitment... commitment is what i see... what is ur motive behind u serving in a ministry? define it pls. only then can u give God ur best... tons of things to be set in order in this house of God.. TONS!!! but who will receive n learn with an open heart n mind? dun resist God pls... a much greater work is gng to take place.. another level up into the spiritual realm is what i see n feel strongly in my spirit. a breakthru will come but it depends on how we work together to fight this battle... a servant attitude n spirit is required in any ministry... an essential one...

another reminder... dun use music to manipulate the emotions of ppl. i know and i can sense it when it happens... Beware... just let God lead... trust Him... and if u think u noe what is music n worship? think again...